This sign was hanging in the Cupcake Shop that we recently visited when my sister-in-law, Susie was visiting from Colorado. She really liked this saying and the more I thought about it, so did I. The one thing that comes to my mind when reading this is the weight battle I face every day. I am going to open up my heart right now, if that's ok. I was suppose to go this week to see my Dr. for a weight and blood pressure check. She was also going to look over my food journal that she wanted me to keep for 6 weeks (I wrote in it a few days worth). Well, I re-scheduled it for 2 weeks because I knew I had failed and I tried to buy me some more time. I didn't want to disappoint her, when in reality, I am disappointing my self. She is only trying to help me. Why do I keep failing at this, I ask myself. I have yo-yo'd all my life and I am really tired of this mess! I know what I need to do, I know how to do it. I want to attempt this again and not fail this time. I need courage and strength.....What would you attempt to do if you knew you would not fail?
Friday, October 16, 2009
powerful sign
This sign was hanging in the Cupcake Shop that we recently visited when my sister-in-law, Susie was visiting from Colorado. She really liked this saying and the more I thought about it, so did I. The one thing that comes to my mind when reading this is the weight battle I face every day. I am going to open up my heart right now, if that's ok. I was suppose to go this week to see my Dr. for a weight and blood pressure check. She was also going to look over my food journal that she wanted me to keep for 6 weeks (I wrote in it a few days worth). Well, I re-scheduled it for 2 weeks because I knew I had failed and I tried to buy me some more time. I didn't want to disappoint her, when in reality, I am disappointing my self. She is only trying to help me. Why do I keep failing at this, I ask myself. I have yo-yo'd all my life and I am really tired of this mess! I know what I need to do, I know how to do it. I want to attempt this again and not fail this time. I need courage and strength.....What would you attempt to do if you knew you would not fail?
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I am right here with you on this exact same issue...my weight. I am a yo-yo'er too. I hate it. The only thing I know is sometimes food is my idol, and until I get rid of that and make Jesus my entire focus, I will always fail with food.
I have dealt with weight my whole grown-up life as well. In high school I had an eating disorder, and not wanting to swing back that way I swung too far the OTHER way. Not caring what I ate. Sometimes I feel self-destructive when I go to eat something I know I shouldn't be eating...or eating for the wrong reasons. I think a lot of people have the same issues we struggle with, Rhonda, I just don't think many are willing to open and support one another through it.
To answer that question: I would go to college. (scares me to death to think about)
I think that weight loss is the hardest thing in the whole world. I'm right there with you. One of the best things I ever did for myself was join the Sisterhood. They are such a supportive, inspiring group of women (and men). Maybe try us out. I'm always here if you need to vent. Keep the faith. We can both do this if we just put our mind to it.
If I knew I would not fail, I would start a real photography business, that would allow me to quit my job and travel the world capturing memories for others.
And I can relate to the weigh-loss struggle. But I think you're just beautiful and when I look at you I see a women who raised lovely beautiful children and is enjoying all the time possible with her adorable grandchildren! I think you are radiant!
Hugs,
Natalie
This is a tough question for me! Because to answer it honestly I would have to say, Motivational Speaker and successful at it! I would also like to learn how to sew and go back to school! School was never easy for me, grades were never there! OHHHH the weight thing! Ughhh! I have battled the weight since having children. Not a yo-yoer mostly just going up and up and up! I am enjoying the loss lil by lil! I am not sure what "clicked" this time but I hope it keeps clicking! For me the main thing was to never be on a diet and not have requirements! Just do it and I celebrate every 1/2 lb I lose, just by cheering myself on! Rhonda, hang in there, don't beat up on yourself, you can totally do this, sometimes when caring for so many others we forget about ourselves, time to put you first!
Rhonda... you ask such a giant question at the end of your post. I have given it a lot of thought. And I mean A LOT. My honest, honest, honest answer is this... I am not afraid to fail. I would rather try something over and over and over again than not try it at all. I think there is sometimes more learning in "failing" than in winning or succeeding. You write about struggling with your weight and disappointing yourself and wanting to attempt again and not fail. But it's the TRYING that you should be proud of. Maybe it just wasn't the right time. Maybe it is now. Maybe you need more help from us out here. AND YOU ARE ASKING for it. That takes remarkable courage. This post may be what you need... friends, encouragement, love and strength in numbers. Each day I remember that I lived through the deaths of my beloved father and my wonderful mother-in-law... I remember that they would be proud of me to TRY not only new things but to accomplish unfinished things, too. There is the possibility that I could fail at lots of things, but there is the great possibility that I will succeed. And if I "fail"... I will try again. And again. Just like you are doing now. I will also say that I LOVE the message of the sign in the Cupcake Shop because it gives us lots of things to think about. It gives me IDEAS of things I want to TRY! But for me, failure is an option that I will live with... but also an option to fight harder, learn more, get up and go again! I know that feeling disappointed in ourselves is the hardest kind of disappointment because as women we are very tough on ourselves... but I hope you know how many people are here to lean on. Just read your loving comments. We are all here and we all need each other. Thank you for this wonderful post to begin the dialogue... and a new attempt at whatever each of us is attempting! Much love...
I just read Sharon's comment and she is so right. I think she hit the nail on the head. We can't worry about if we are going to fail. We just have to try. Maybe we will have to try over and over, but we will succeed. We all have each other to lean on. We can all achieve anything we put our minds to. Love you girl!!
I too have yo-yo'd all my life. There are some things I keep trying at and have some success some of the time. Then there are some things that I do not attempt, or maybe not more than once, because of fear of failure. That may not be good but it's just in our nature.
Well, I definitely need to stop failing at weight loss and organization, but I also would like the determination to be more regular with a daily devotional and prayer life. I know my what my priorities should be but have a hard time exercising them
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