Tuesday, December 11, 2012
**I wish it would snow enough to make everything clean
**I can't believe I'm so organized with gifts for Christmas
**I am thankful for my daughter doing some of my shopping for me
**I love shopping on-line
**I'm looking forward to Abby's program at school and dance recital
**I want to get started back in the nursing home ministry, singing
**I'm thankful for my husband who takes care of me when I am sick
**I'm thankful to have my garage back to park my van in (Big thankful)
**I haven't had an appetite for a while
**I've lost over 20 lbs. this year
**I need some new clothes that I don't swim in
**I would love to sleep ALL night
**I'm thankful to have our doxie girls, even though they have accidents
**I finished reading another book by Joyce Myers, Women to Women
**I'm not on Facebook as much and I like it that way
**I love lemon rice soup, especially when I don't feel good
**I started watching "The Big Bang Theory", it's all Mike's fault
**I stopped watching non sense reality t.v. and feel better
**I have a new favorite beverage...cherry limeade on ice
**I haven't drank coffee since April 2012. I don't miss it
**I would love to stow away to North Canton Ohio
**I need a new warm cozy robe, which I think I will treat myself to
**I can't believe Christmas is 14 days away
**I only have a few more gifts to get
**I'm looking forward to Christmas Eve dinner and church with family
**I want to thank you for reading my random thoughts
Thursday, October 18, 2012
After the field trip was over, I took Jack back home with me to play. Then we went to pick Abby up from school and they both got to play until it was time to go home after dinner. It was a great day and I am so glad I was able to take off work to make these special memories with my grand kids.
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
We decided to camp out at my moms for the 2 nights Steph was home, so we could all be together and not miss a minutes visiting time. We had wall to wall blow up beds in the family room and everyone was comfy.
We had 2 Birthday celebrations for Gray. One on Saturday eve. with his other grandparents and One on his Birthday the 7th at McDonald's with his cousins. The kids ate and played hard in the jungle gym. One of Gray's favorite gifts was a stuffed dog I had ordered for him that looks like my Halle dog. He adores her so much and loves stuffed animals. I went to Pet Smart and made a name tag for the dog. Gray kept thanking me all weekend for his dog. He even put a leash on her and walked her in to McD's.
It was such a fun weekend and lots of hugs exchanged. When Steph and kids had to pack up and leave Monday before noon, there were lots of tears. She had to stop at the dealership she bought her vehicle from to get her oil changed, so she got on the road a little earlier. After she left, I noticed she had left Gray's Birthday bag filled with his presents. I asked her if she wanted me to mailed them and she said no. After her oil change, she drove back to my moms house and we got to spend another hour visiting and eating and hugging some more. I think it was meant for her to leave the bag, cause we weren't ready to say good-bye.
Then after she had been gone about 10 minutes, I discovered the kids toothbrushes were left behind. I will mail them! We all are looking forward to our next time we can all be together. We are hoping for Thanksgiving!!!!
Thursday, September 27, 2012
thought #2...My daughter and grandkids come home for a visit in 9 days
thought #3...Celebration of Gray's 7th Birthday at Red Robin
thought #4...Shopping to do, although I'm almost done
thought #5...Need to plan the menus for the visit
thought #6...My mom will fly back with my sister when she leaves
thought #7...I want to make every second count while they are all here
thought #8...Trip to the Apple Orchard
thought #9...Trip to Goodwill (Diane's favorite store)
thought #10..Trip to the Riverwalk
thought #11..Visit our dads grave
thought #12..Have breakfast at our favorite place in town
thought #13..Enjoy my sisters famous chicken & dumplings
thought #14..Maybe sneak away and go to the Elvis Fest on Friday night
thought #15..Have lots of sister talks
thought #16..Already missing my mom, but so happy she's able to go
thought #17..Getting my hair cut and colored next week to look good
thought #18..Decorating my moms and my house for fall
thought #19..Getting enough rest to have the energy for everything
thought #20..Thanking God for allowing us to all be together for a visit
Friday, September 7, 2012
I am so excited to be able to say, I am trying a Gluten free way of life right now. My daughter tried to get me to go Gluten free last year after I had many flare ups with colitis and I think I was just too sick and my head wasn't clear enough to think about making a diet change. I thought of it as work and effort. But as I do more research and listening to friends who are trying this, it makes sense to me. It is really not as hard as you think. Reading labels is the key. I have to admit, I was a Breadaholic. I had to have my bread every day in some shape or form. I craved lemon rice soup during a colon flare up and I would always have to have my french bread with it. It was my comfort, my friend. After overhearing a co-worker talking about going wheat and flour free, it really sunk in with me. My daughter's mother-in-law also went gluten free a few weeks ago and feels terrific and is losing weight. I know I have weight to lose, but I am doing it more for the healing of my colon. She was telling me what made her start was after reading a book by Dr. William Davis called "Wheat Belly". So many people are being changed and healed by going gluten free. The disease I have is one of the ones he talks about in his book. Wheat and flour aggrivate the colon and intestines, so why would I not give this a try? It's doable and doesn't take a whole lot of preparation. I had the best breakfast this morning....fetta cheese omelette and was so full and didn't want anything until lunch. When I heard you could have corn chips and other potato chips, I was excited. I also found the most delicious gluten free brownie mix I made. And you can even have guacamole...one of my favorite snacks.
Bottom line is....I want to feel good again and be normal. I don't want to live in fear of not making it to a bathroom. I don't want to always have to find out where a bathroom is every where I go. I don't want to have to wear depends the rest of my life. I want to walk our beautiful trail again outside without worrying about making it to a bathroom. I want to ride my bike again. No one will ever know unless you have suffered this type of affliction, just what it is like. I look normal on the outside, but the fear I face every day in not knowing how my colon will act is very debilitating. Sure, stress can bring on some episodes, but I really do believe that the #1 cause is the food that we put in our bodies.
So, I am more than excited to share this new adventure with the few readers that I have. I am on my way to healing my colon. I think it will thank me some day soon. I AM EXCITED!
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Mike and I went to their empty house to take all the garbage out for garbage pick up the following morning. We carried stuff out for 2 hours. This gives an idea of how much stuff that was no longer needed or making the long haul to Canton.
I had the chance to walk around inside the empty 3 story house that once was filled with so much life.
I found myself in Steph & Jeffs old bedroom where I stood on the very spot my beautiful grand-daughter, Ivy LaRue was born. I let my mind take me back to the early morning when I was there and knelt with my daughter as she gave birth. What an awesome memory that I will cherrish forever. I walked across the hall to the kids bedroom and let my mind go back to the times I would babysit and tuck them in and read them stories. I walked into the bathroom where I sat many times on the closed toilet seat while bathing and watching so much life play in the tub.....picking out the perfect hooded towel to wrap them in. I stopped and looked around at the dining area where I could picture hand holding at the table before meals, praying over their food. I looked at the counter in the kitchen where stools once sat which were filled with hungry little bodies or just sitting working on crafts. Oh, the memories in that little house filled with love. What's really surprising is, I didn't cry while walking around. I actually felt such Peace and excitement for this new adventure they are starting. I know in my spirit that they are following God's perfect will for their lives.
Before they left, Noah and I carved his initials in his tree that my parents planted for him when he was born. His eyes lit up, knowing that when he comes back to visit that tree, they will still be there.
In 9 days I will see them all again when my mom and I drive to Canton Ohio for Labor Day weekend. Anticipation!
Thursday, August 16, 2012
While we were at Steph's, we watched the "Grands" while she went down the street to the Nail salon to get her nails done and toenails painted for an upcoming wedding she is in this weekend. She has been so busy with packing, she is trying to fit everything in when she can. I took the "Grands" to the backyard and we played a game called "Freeze". I tell them to run around and when I say "Freeze" they freeze their body into an animal and I have to guess what animal they are. They love this game. As we were playing, I had a wave come over me that this will probably be the last time I run and play with my 4 grandkids in their first backyard. We had 11 years of good times in that yard, playing "Freeze". We played until their mommy got home. Ivy was sad to stop playing. The next time we play it, we will be in their North Canton, Ohio yard on Angel Dr. I can't wait!
My mom and I are planning a trip over Labor Day weekend to see their new house. Noah keeps bringing that up....and is anxious for me to see where their new life will be.
The "Grands" will be staying with us this Friday night and Saturday while Steph and Jeff go to Chicago for the wedding Steph is standing up in. This will be our last time being together before they make the big move on Monday. I got lots of goodies and things planned with their cousins so we will have a fun time. It might be the final chapter on Cub Run in Valparaiso Indiana, but it's a new chapter starting Aug. 20, on Angel Dr. in Canton Ohio....Bittersweet!
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
My Birthday, which was last week, was spent on the couch after work, dealing with another colitis flare up. I have no clue what set it off, other than, maybe the few fried veggies I ate at the fair a few days before. My Birthday dinner consisted of egg noodles and crackers...Happy Birthday to me!
I felt inspired to pick up some books that I had been letting go by the wayside and never finished. "Battlefield of the Mind" & "Women to Women" by Joyce Meyers. Let me tell you, they really blessed me and encouraged me in such a way that I can't explain. I could feel sorry for myself and ask "why me"? If it's one thing I have, I can say I have Faith. I believe in the power of prayer. I confess every day that I am healed of Ulcerative Colitis. The flare ups may pop up every now and then but I will not let it beat me and ruin my life. It's not what defines me. I admit, I have been living in Fear and have anxiety when going out in public, always looking for where the bathroom might be, just in case. I will not live in Fear any longer. I love my little book that Steph gave me called "The Bible Cure for Irritable Bowel Syndrome" by Don Colbert, M.D. I keep it in my purse and pull it out when I need some advise. A lot of the cause of this condition is "Stress". I have had my fill of stress, believe me. The advise he gives for Getting a Grip on Stress is to Forgive, Forget and Apologize. Wipe clean your Slate. Understanding the types of stress. Renew with God's Word. And the most important for your mind, body and soul is to Reinvigorate with Exercise. I finally started doing this last night and let me tell you, do I ever feel Reinvigorated! Just starting out riding the bike for 20 min. and walking on the treadmill for 20 min. gave me so much energy. It made me ask myself, why did I ever quit doing this? I know that part of my healing is going to be to destress and the key to destressing is exercising. And of course, I also started watching my portion sizes when I eat. My menu is very limited anyways, due to so many foods that I have to avoid. I don't want to over eat though on foods that I can have. It's a new start again, but I feel good about it. One step at a time....
Thursday, July 26, 2012
It all came as a big surprise several weeks ago when Jeff got a call to come and interview for a job with another Newspaper "The Canton Repository". He and Steph drove to Canton, where Jeff would later get a call on their way back home that he got the job, which came with a nice pay increase. I know that they were waiting for a new adventure in their lives and this was too good to pass up. And I am so proud for them. My first feelings when I heard they were moving was "Bittersweet"....As a parent, we all want our children to do well and be happy. If they are happy and want to follow this yellow brick road to Canton, then I will try my hardest to support them and be there for them every step of the way.
I have watched my parents say good-bye to a daughter and a son who moved half way across the United States and I know how hard it was on them as well as myself, not having my sister and brother around. My mom told me that I will experience what it's like. I'm so very thankful that it's close enough that I can go visit on a long weekend. The grand-kids have already asked me if I'm coming for Thanksgiving....And I know where I'm spending my vacation time next year.
Several people have asked me if I am sad and how I will cope with losing my daughter, son-in-law and grandkids. I tell them, I'm not losing them. It's not a death. It's a new beginning. It's a change for everyone. I want to look at it as a positive thing, not a negative thing. Sure, I will miss them knowing I can't drive 20 minutes and see them, but there is Skype. I can see their faces and smiles any time I want. We will always have a connection.
I'm sure when I see the U-Haul pull away from their house, the tears will flow and the heart will be heavy, but I know that God will be with them and will guide and protect them and we will all be together again before we know it.
I have always told Steph growing up to follow your dream...Her dream might just be in Canton Ohio......
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
We were so busy having fun that I didn't pick up my camera...but that's ok, cause I have the memories stored in my head....
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
My housework has been hit and miss....mostly miss...but that's OK. At least the laundry stays caught up and the dishes don't stay in the sink for more than a few days. I keep hoping that the dish fairy would fly down and do them....I have high hopes.
I love summertime, because it gives us an excuse to be on the go and not feel guilty. I find myself waking up way too early to get a jump start on things that didn't get done the night before. I've even prepared my mom some meals to take to her in the morning before work, to heat up for lunches or dinner. She really appreciates it.
We will have 4 house guests this Friday eve. thru Mon. morn. Noah, Carter, Gray & Ivy will be staying with us while their parents go out of town. I already have my menus written out and grocery list ready. I'm sure we will play outside a lot in the pool and have squirt gun wars. We will all go to Abby's Soccer game and Carter's baseball game. It will be a fun time. New memories will be made.
So, here's to jam packed june and lovin' every minute of it.....
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
The reason this Pyrex casserole dish is so special to me is, my dad bought it at a yard sale for my mom the summer before he passed away. Since my mom doesn't cook much anymore, I ended up using it more. I actually use it on an average of 5 days out of 7. It is mainly used to transport food to my mom that I cook. Each time I use it, I think of my dad. Each time I load it in my van with food to take to my mom, I think of my dad. I can just see his smile and him saying to me "thank you baby doll for taking care of your mom". Who would have thought that this simple Pyrex casserole dish would serve this purpose when he bought it, and he probably paid a quarter for it? When It's empty and time to wash it, I wash it with care. I would hate to break it. I dry it off and put it safely back in the cabinet in it's special spot. It's the perfect size and so handy. I know that many times I would tell my dad to stop bringing stuff home to add to the stuff they don't need, but then I realized that it was his hobby. He found such joy in the quarter or fifty cent items (treasures) he would pick up. I will never forget the time he brought home a broken vacuum cleaner that someone just gave him. He was so excited and said it was like "brand new". Come to find out, all it needed was a new bag. It worked great after that. He use to love it when my sister would come to town and the 3 of us would go yard sailing. He would have a baggie of change he would give us to buy what we needed. He didn't want us spending our own money. It made him so happy to see us excited to find a bargain. So, this little Pyrex casserole dish might look like an ordinary dish, but to me it is special. It hold more than food....it holds memories...
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
She still lives in the house that I grew up in. I go over every morning on my way to work and make our breakfast and usually making another trip in the evening to take her dinner. She made the comment that she needs to sell the house and move in assisted living. I told her whatever she decides, we will support her decision. We are in a limbo state of not knowing what the right answer is. I admit, it gets very tiring running 2 households, but as long as Mike and I are able, we will be there for her. She gave a lot to me, so the least I can do is give back to her.
Monday, May 14, 2012
The Mother's Day celebration continued the next night at grandson, Carter's baseball game with a Birthday Celebration for son-in-law Jeff afterwards at Valpo Velvet ice cream parlor. I was given my gift that evening because we would not be together on Mother's Day. Steph knows me like a book and knew I really wanted to go see the movie "Joyful Noise", so she gave me the DVD. I love receiving movies as gifts. She is so good for that!
Saturday morning the celebration continued with Breakfast at our favorite hometown place, Tate's place. My mom, hubby, Steph and I enjoyed a nice morning eating, before us 3 gals went to a nice spa to enjoy pedicures and manicures. It was so special having both my mom and daughter sitting side by side enjoying such a fun time together. I want to make it a yearly tradition...breakfast and ta taing...
Sunday, Mother's Day, I woke up to 2 beautiful cards from my 3 dogs. Mike always has a way of being so thoughtful and since the dogs are our babies, he wanted me to know how much they appreciate the love and care I give them.
I picked my mom up for church. It was a great program which included a special service dedicated to us moms. I got to see so many old friends. After church, I decided to grill out at my moms, since we knew all the restaurants in town would be so crowded. I had a taste for a good ole' burger. I know with it being Mother's Day, the last thing I should have done is cook or work, but it's my nature to do it anyway. It was a very simple lunch and with the help of my hubby, we pulled it together. It was only the 3 of us. Steph was out of town for the day (yay for her) and my son and his family were eating at his in-laws. After a nice lunch, we just rested and enjoyed the quiet and peacefulness of the afternoon. My brother, Randy called from Boise Idaho to wish my mom Happy Mother's Day and I got to talk to him and catch up on his life.
We headed home in the early evening and as we pulled in our drive, my son drove up with his family. They brought me a beautiful hanging basket of flowers. It was my very first flower of the season, so I very happy. They stayed and we had a great visit, watching the grand kids play.
It was a GREAT Mother's Day, since it really started on that Thursday eve. I am truly blessed with a family who loves me.
Monday, May 7, 2012
I can feel my mind renewing after every chapter I read...
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Monday, April 30, 2012
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
She ended up flying with my mom to bring her back home when I had to cancel my flight plans due to a colon infection and ulcerative colitis flare up. My moms house was my hospital and Diane was my nurse. I wasn't able to eat much and was trying to find foods that I could tolerate. Diane made me a pot of her homemade chicken & dumplins and that was just what the dr. ordered. After eating the first few bites, I felt the healing begin. We spent each morning meditating and listening to Praise and Worship music, while Diane exercised on the bike, I relaxed on the comfy chair beside her. I soaked in the positive energy I needed for my healing. It was so comforting with my sister there. I can't begin to explain how much better it was being there than in a hospital, which the dr. at one point was going to have me go. I fought it and knew that I could heal better at my moms. Company came and went thru the week and it was like I was being visited in the hospital. I was able to get out some when I felt good enough and one of the highlights of the week was going to Marshall's with Diane, Steph and my mom. We had a Pretty Women style show in the dressing room. I found the perfect summer little black dress with a cute cover up to wear to 2 weddings this summer. Diane found a whole new wardrobe and Steph found some good bargains also. It was a great afternoon that started with lunch at Panera (love their cream of chicken & wild rice soup). My mom who usually does not have the strength to shop, even shopped. She had her walker to rest when her legs got tired. We ended the trip by going by Designer Desserts to pick up a key lime pie cup cake to take home.
So, thanks to Diane's chicken & dumplin's and lots of prayer, I am starting to feel like I am among the living again. It might also have to do with the medication my dr. prescribed, but I do give God the Glory! And I really Miss my Sister!
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Friday, March 23, 2012
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Friday, March 9, 2012
Monday, February 27, 2012
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Noah has a permanent Smile on his face. He's like a ray of sunshine when he walks in a room. I love him to the moon and back.
We will celebrate his Birthday on Saturday night at my mom, his Great Mommal's house. His Great Aunt Diane will be in town and will celebrate with us, as well as his other Grandparents.
Happy Birthday Sweet Noah!
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want.He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:He leadeth me beside the still waters.He restoreth my soul:He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name' sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,I will fear no evil: For thou art with me;Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me.Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies;Thou annointest my head with oil; My cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life,and I will dwell in the House of the Lord forever. Amen.
Friday, February 10, 2012
Friday, February 3, 2012
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
I still have my Christmas tree up. It's in a corner, not in the way. I usually take it down before Steph's Birthday, Jan. 8, but this year I enjoyed looking at it longer. I guess it's time to take it down, maybe by the weekend.
Since my dad passed away, almost 11 months now, our routine on weekends are usually spent with my mom and taking her out for breakfast or dinner. It's been nice hanging out with my hubby and her. I appreciate my hubby so much in helping me and her with her household duties that needs a mans touch. Years ago my weekends were consumed with church activities (without my husband) and now it's consumed in a new way. I'm loving spending time with Mike and doing things with him and helping my mom at the same time.
I'm trying to cook new things, especially what my husband likes. I have been eating less chicken and trying to like fish. Mike will not eat chicken. He loves fish, so I am starting to like tilapia. As long as it's a white fish, I can eat it. We are trying to eat healthier and not having so much junk food in the house. I'm proud of Mike for choosing grapes as one of his snack foods. I was really proud of myself lately, for making a copy cat version of an Apple bee's recipe. Mike had ordered Cajun seasoned Tilapia over rice and corn & black bean salsa. It was on the Weight Watcher's menu. I googled it and found the recipe and made it. It did call for quite a few ingredients but once you make the seasoning, you have it for next time. It makes a lot. He said it tasted just like Apple bee's....Mission accomplished! I served it with steamed broccoli and we had a healthy, delicious meal.
I would like to spend more time with my grand kids this year. I would like to take my grand-daughter's, Abby & Ivy to get their nails done. I would like to take the grand-son's somewhere fun for boys. The cousins don't get to spend much time together and I would love to change that. I have such great memories as a child spending time with my cousins and I have remained close to many of them.
I am loving that we rescued 2 of the most loving, playful doxie dogs, Lilly & Halle. They have changed the mood in the house so much. Our 16 year old doxie, Hanker Boy, tolerates them pretty well. We don't look for him to last much longer. But he's a tough dog. For once, Mike has not only 1 lap dog, but 2. It was meant for them to come and live with us. They remind us of the possums in the movie Ice Age. We got them each a long stuffed toy for Christmas and now our living room floor is covered with white stuffing from the toys. They are so happy to see us when we come home from work. Halle jumps up about 3 feet and Lilly runs to get her toy. They are our little girls.
I started playing Words with Friends on Face book a while back and have 20 games going on now. It's hard to keep them going without getting behind. I find myself waking up at night going to the computer to play a word. I do enjoy it and it keeps your mind active.
So, this is what's on my mind today along with a zillion other things. Sorry if I bored you. I really am trying to Blog more often. And read other blogs. I want to get my old self back again, before my dad's death. It's been a hard year for me. I'm just glad I have my friends and family to lift me up. It will get better. So, what's on your mind?
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Growing up, Steph would choose her Birthday cake right after Christmas. Our tradition was "Baskin Robbins" Birthday cake. She had all the favorite characters through-out her childhood. Her favorite flavor was peanut butter & chocolate. We did do some chocolate chip also.